Gabriel.

2009-12-17T01:12:00.001-08:00

DEAD BLOG.

I kinda miss you.

2009-11-15T12:47:00.000-08:00

The musics I used to hear
when you left me
brings back special feelings
even after so long that
you've left me.

You You You

2009-11-04T08:20:00.000-08:00

I just want you close
Coz you make me smile
I just cannot get you off my mind
With each kiss
You blow me away
And without you I think I'd go crazy
For your love I would do anything
Coz to me... you are my everything

When I had you to myself
I didn't want you around
Those pretty faces always made you stand out in a crowd
But someone picked you from the bunch
one glance was all it took
Now it's much too late for me to take a second look
Oh baby give me one more chance
show you that I love you
Won't you please let me
back in your heart
Oh darlin' I was blind to let you go
let you go baby
But now since I see you in his arms
I want you back

suck balls

2009-10-30T22:06:00.000-07:00

It was quite a tragic incident that to be honest made a huge impact on me.
But after I moved on I realized that there are just too many opportunities
and chances for me, the me you used to know is nothing compared
to what I am now, look at me, I'd be dragging on booze almost everyday
having the time of my life almost everyday, the only thing that I have to worry about
is about the hangover the next day.

Look at you, stuck with a guy that hasn't even got an idea on how people like us roll
it's kinda sad cause a girl like you could use some fun in your life.
You would've been part of this wonderful part of me, but sad to say I wouldn't want you
anywhere near me.
So bail from here you little bitch.
Enjoy that pathetic life of yours.

Tap on that son of a bitch!

2009-10-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

Somewhere over the rainbow,
You met an Afro,
He offered me Mango
And we sipped some Cocoa
Reminiscing the time,
back in D' ghetto
Where we fight for our dough
Like Hustle and Flow
They make it rain, we make it snow
Then hit the disco, and make love slow
Be your one night hoe, get down porno
After the good sex, I'd do your cornrow
Im missing every part of you
Your head so baldly
Swag on Baggy
Tummy so chubby
Oh Clyde, I'd be ur Bonnie
Be yo sunshine when it gets cloudy
Promise you tat you'll neva feel empty

Loves.

Latest hitsss!

2009-10-27T07:23:00.001-07:00

*NEW* Baby One More ft Young Boi [HQ]

Artist: Young Boi Song: Baby One More Written: Young Boi & Fawrah Jane Produced by Szmytko Download Link: http://limelinx.com/files/8d589b1638f3f1aa17420b69234da3ca

Length:3:34

I need a doctor.

2009-10-26T08:39:00.001-07:00

You don't know what it's like to lose your
first love and not even be friends.
And now this heart of mine
wouldn't be able to give the kind of love
that I have given you,
now that my heart is broken into million pieces,
it'll never be the same again.

I'm sorry that i cannot give you the love you want,
whats broken is already broken, and the only person
that would be able to mend it back piece by piece
is the one who broke it.

Hies

2009-10-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

I everyday so boredz mansx.
hmmmm..

with loves.

2009-10-25T04:35:00.000-07:00

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine
Oh, there is a light and it never goes out
Take me out tonight
Where theres music and theres people
And theyre young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I havent got one
Anymore

2009-10-24T18:57:00.001-07:00

*NEW* Its You (Online Release)!!

Artist: Young Boi Written: Young Boi Produced by Beat Starz Download link: http://limelinx.com/files/8e86ee0ad634c21ee738b989b5e2bc1a

Fat mothers.

2009-10-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

Hello there, to those tiny little winny winny kids that reads my blog/tumbr.

I’d be using back my OLD blog (lime-fridge) for the updates of my amazing life, just kidding. While as for TUMBLR, I’d still be using it, IDK for what, but i’ll still just use it. most probably for pictures or vids or porn.

*****IF THERE'S ANYOBDY OUT THERE READING THIS! PLEASE GO OVER TO MY BLOG AND TAG KAY!? BUAIIS BUAIIS LOVESXZ. (:

Haro! Gabriel Loke here.

2009-10-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

Hi Guys! I'm back to using lime-fridge. So suck on a stone while you read my blog.
TAG ME KAY!?

-CHAO OUTSIDE MOTHER FUCKER!

2009-08-26T03:09:00.000-07:00

KIDS, LOOK ME UP AT!

http://oldkingclancy.tumblr.com/

Bulletproof.

2009-08-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

Pretty, you used to think we were meant to be together,

you remember us lying on the bed, playing this thing..

Where you and i say whats on our mind at the same time?

I really want to just apologise that i sent you

that message, we could still be friends.

But I guess you wouldn't be so soft on the heart

to do something like that for something like me.

You might think this is so complicated

but its rather simple,

I'm just someone who used

to be your very very best of friend,

but somethings just didn't turn out like you and me planned

but thats the past, right now.. friends is all that its gonna be

No point saying all this, if you weren't so mean

and would care to see this differently,

we'd be talking right now this sec

a few months back.

talk to me.

2009-08-16T02:58:00.001-07:00

I NOTICE WHEN YOU LEFT ME

MY PHONE HAS BEEN SO DEAD,

NO ONE CALL NO ONE TEXT.

SO WEIRD.

JUST NOT ME FUCK.

SG!

2009-08-13T10:45:00.000-07:00

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Cdg Fever

2009-08-12T09:27:00.001-07:00

Trying to save money for

Comme des Garcons'

FOOO!

Cant wait!

First who uses the heart, loses the game

1,2,1,2,3,4

2009-08-12T02:56:00.000-07:00

I am a honey bee
Shunned out from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where she doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen

So I’ll come prepared
My new friends say they would help me
Get my loved one back
They say it isn’t right
The bees have control of your mind
But I choose not to believe that
So we’ll meet in the darkness of the night
And I’ll promise I will be there on time
We’ll be guided by my new friends the butterflies
Bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
No longer stuck where she doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you
And now that you’re with me
We can make our own honey.

told me you'll love me forever.

2009-08-10T00:12:00.000-07:00

Sighh, one of the most fucked up times of my life.
Told me you'll love me forever, forever's over.
you wouldn't have an idea.

I hate you but I love you.

2009-08-04T01:40:00.000-07:00

It was all because of your eyes, that I'm heartbroken now.

You wanna know what made me really smile?
You: haha idiot, I didn't say cannot! i caLL you Later?
You remember? You know how happy I was when you say you're calling me?
Yea doubt so, screw this really, I just cannot comprehand

I'm going to tell myself not to text you,
not to talk to you on MSN
until you do so.
and talk to me only if you really care about how I feel and think.

I don't know if this would work out, but i'm just giving it a go.
Germaine, I like you, and I think it's really a rush for you and me to say all this
when you and *** just broke up, I decided to tell you cause I'm afraid that when
you finally figured out that I like you you'd be off with someone else.
I'm not going to ask you to be my girlfriend anytime soon, I dont want to rush things with you
I just want to get to know more of you and if you're willing we'll take things slow, but
please don't think of me as another ***, I'm not sure if you would be serious with me
I just hope you would cause i'm serious about you.

Why am I saying this again?
Its to refresh your memories AGAIN!

Yea, you're a heartbreaker, wishful thought.

Gabriel L.

give me another chance

2009-08-03T04:35:00.001-07:00

We'd be better off as ghost right?

Give me another chance.

2009-08-03T00:38:00.000-07:00

Germaine, you're like Nutella you know?

imy.

I don't

2009-08-02T06:32:00.000-07:00

Germaine, I'm over you.

NOT.

GF.

2009-08-01T11:16:00.000-07:00

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YES 24/7 ily.

Fucking wishful thinking.

2009-07-31T10:39:00.000-07:00

You know I've been really tired this few days,
but 1 thing is for sure is that I never fail to wait for your calls and sms.
I don't know really, I don't know.
You played your mind games well.
I'm just so upset.

You know I missed you so fucking much?
Yeaa, you had fun.

Was thinking about you the whole time.
What do you think? I had fun?

Yah Germaine it's for you.

Karma?

2009-07-31T01:26:00.000-07:00

Not going to love me anyway. ):
Just dying to talk to you.

imy.

2009-07-30T04:13:00.000-07:00

GERMAINE I MISS YOU, YOU KNOW?

GFJM.

2009-07-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

Yeaa, I know take things slow.
To be honest I wouldn't mind being all jealous
if I already knew that no matter what we'll still be together.

Bumped yourself on a pole,
it hurts, yea i know. But what can I do?
I can look at you the whole day 24/7
but can't touch.
You're like this amazing girl,
that really catches my eyes.
First time I saw you, thought to myself
dam, she's different.
Since she already belonged to someone else,
I kept my hands off you.
But amazingly when we started talking,
things happen between you and him.
Lucky or what? I don't know.
I don't know why, but I'm just afraid you'll just run away, honestly.

Its everytime that you look into my eyes
makes me yearn more for you.

Are you going to call me tonight?
I love you.

2009-07-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

STEROIDS.

2009-07-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

Steroids.

Germaine don't know what is steroids -.-
so cute you know she.

You're easy on the eyes.

2009-07-28T03:25:00.000-07:00

YOU HAVE NO IDEA RIGHT?
FEAR OF REJECTION.
YEAA THOUGHT SO.

Pkhw.

2009-07-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

YEAHHH, YOU CAN PRETTY MUCH BURN IN HELL NOW.

GF.

2009-07-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

GF IS HOT I SWEAR!!!

Good Course.

2009-07-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

Website:
http://blog.dk.sg/2009/07/14/saving-charmaine-%E2%80%93-live-your-life-2009/

Event: Saving Charmaine – Live Your Life 2009
Venue: Zouk Club
Date & Time:
Saturday, 25th July 2009 5pm to 9pm
Sunday, 26th July 2009 6pm to 10pm
Ticket price:
$17 (1 day pass)
$30 (2 day pass)

Wishful thinking.

2009-07-15T02:32:00.000-07:00

You took your time coming over here,
I think thats for the best.

I miss you terribly,
The distance can't control me,
I promise we'll pull through,
I'm constantly thinking about you,
It still seems far away,
But someday you will see.
We've been through so much more after all,
Someday things will be fine,
We'll make up for lost time,
So close your eyes now,
Imagine me right there,
I'm sitting beside you
All the memories we share.

And lately i've been thinking of
The things we used to do
Things just aren't the same
As they used to be before
When we're all grown up
will you still remember me
and invite me to your wedding day
We'll reminisce about all the good old days.

What is it about trust that you're so upset about?
Crayon Little Star.

PK.

2009-07-14T00:43:00.000-07:00

COME BACK PLEASE?

I'm still waiting even till now.

My girl's lovely kiss.

2009-07-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

What happen to My Pamela,
is she sick?
Why didn't she go to school?
Will she be meeting up with her someone later?
I did text her but she didn't reply me.
Sigh

Though there may be lots of people around me,
i still feel alone without you with me.

In everything I do, you'd come to my mind

When I'm at Lot 1 i keep my eyes wide open to see
if I could catch a glimpse of you.

Everytime when I'm on my way to school in the bus,
I tend to turn my head left and right looking for you
when I pass your school.

Feeling so heartbroken everyday, it's like normal
in my everyday.

But.. who cares?
You've got your own life to live,
no one would be so kind to hear me talk about you
almost every single day.
Would you even care to even talk to me when I'm on my knees?

I promise to try my best to leave you alone for this few weeks.
And the first week just passed it already seem
like its been weeks.

Its so dam bloody difficult to get you off my mind
I'm just so curious, that if I die will you come for my funeral.
Looking at the situation right now, I don't think so.
Who is going to help me win you back?

Thought by giving up my time, my allowance, my friends, my studies
in hope of having you come back with me.
But, to no avail.

Loves.

PamelaKokHuiWen

2009-07-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road.

So will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
And I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry
So just say how to make it right
And i swear I'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling i love you so...

I know that I have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure i can't deny,

That is what I really hope too..

2009-07-07T07:29:00.000-07:00

Some times my Heart beats real fast, just as your LJ is about to load.

Pamela, if you're reading this, go see my Facebook pics kay? (:
Blog cannot upload don't know why.

imy

2009-07-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

I miss you even when you don't blog ):

Abstinence from you.

The Lewis Twins - My Love (Justin Timberlake) Cover, Youtube
The Lewis Twins - Call it off (Tegan and Sara) Cover, Youtube
Cloud Cult - Pretty Voice

PKHW.

2009-07-02T05:24:00.000-07:00

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
I could see us holding hands
Walkin on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sittin on the grass leanin side by side
You could be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy

Now if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile at every word I wrote
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team
See, what's the point in waiting anymore
Cuz Girl, I never been more sure
This ring here represents my heart
And everything I've been waiting for

Stuffed Nose, Watery Eyes, Swollen shut Eyes, imypkhw.

2009-07-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think to myself what is it that I want,
is it you? if its you then why am i doing all this?
is it because i miss you so much? is it cause i cant stand you and him?

Frankly speaking, i've come to a stage where nothing else matter to me
other then you, i've come to a stage that i would be really happy that you would talk to me
reply my sms, it dosen't matter what we talk or quarrel about,
I'm just dying to hear your voice, or to just see you.

Sometimes, I really don't understand you
Sometimes, I really don't understand me

You're gone now, why am i still holding on?
What is it that I see in you that makes me love you so much?
Why am I willing to forgive you even if you come back?

I really want to forget bout you,
but the only way is to enjoy myself,
but the problem is, i can't,
cause there is a major exam coming up,
and if i study, i'd think of you!

You see where this is going?
Am I at fault?
Did I bring all this to myself?
Why is it so hard to move on?

Actually, if you're willing to be my friend,
i'd try my best not to talk about the both of us,
I guess that's the only way I can hear your voice.

I don't mind you doing all this to me, i'll forgive everything you've done
and I hope you'll do the same too. I just want to be your friend.

Dear Lord, please help me end this terrible misery that i'm in now
I find that nothing I do now would actually help in the relationship
between me and her, I'm just praying for a miracle to happen.
I'm really counting on you Lord. I love the both of you.

GabrielL.

PKHW PKHW PKHW PKHW.

2009-06-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

I never wanted anyone before
Half as much as I want you
I finally found what I've been searching for
My whole life through.

You're the answer to the prayers I've prayed
More than I've ever dreamed of
So I give to you my heart today
And pledge my eternal love.

I'll be faithful, faithful till the end
I'm so thankful that heaven
Chose to send you
And this love will last forever
Forever I'll be true
And be faithful to you.

You're my one and only one you see
There's just no one to compare
I'll hold and keep you close to me
Way beyond our golden days.

Our two hearts will always beat as one
One thing you can know for sure
I promise that I'll never let you down
Your trust in me's secure.

Why am I still holding on?

2009-06-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

Why am I still holding on?
Here's why..

When I looked through the photos of You and Michelle,
it already made me want to cry. I really missed those smiles
that we shared when we were together.

Its every little thing that you do really makes me want to just Hug you
I've never felt like this before, its really too hard for me to let go.
I just don't understand, I don't understand you, I don't understand me.

The thought of leaving you has never once crossed my mind
When you decided to leave me, everything came crashing down on me
You, your friends, my friends, my mom and everyone else

You felt this "Special Love".
Do you know that i was the one feeling like that this the whole time when i'm with you?
Do you know that when I went for OBS, and when I kinda miss home
I talk to you, it made me feel like there's nothing to worry about,
you'll be there for me when i'm done,
there is this night where I failed to call you, and i fell asleep? remember?
I woke up at around 4 am it was dark, but i ran all the way across the whole
camp just to get my phone so that i could call you, well you were asleep at that time.
After i've talked to you it made my heart really at ease you know?

When we were together, I have never told you about how special
and precious to me, I know there are times that I neglected you,
but i somehow did cheer you up when we were at home
we'll be laughing and playing around in my room.

I know we spent most of out time at home, because I like being alone with you,
When we talked in out own language where no one would understand
what we're talking, and it's those times that we're alone at home
I treasure the most!

Did I give up on you after I hear about all your happenings?
About how Randy asked you to be his GF in the letter?
I actually thought that I didn't had the chance with you.
To me at that time 8 months was already veryyyy long.
But did I give up? In the end, we spent almost 1 year plus together.

I didn't expect my Love for you to have gone so deep,
Loving you was the greatest thing I ever did.
But..
You just took my heart looked at it and then push it down in to the HEART SHREDDER.
Maybe I wasn't the one that would read you blog everyday,
but you sure was in my heart every second of the day
you don't have to worry about me not reading your blog,
cause I now do it almost everyday, I even check my mails to see
if you've updated your blog, you just got to see
how after all this i would still be able to be so close to you
your facebook and your blog.

Loving you isn't some easy task.

She loves me no more )):
Sigh. Back to my Wishful thoughts when I didn't had you.

I Love You ):

Pkhw

2009-06-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

I give you my Hand you Hold
I give you my Lips you Kiss
I give you my Body you Hug

I give you my Heart you Break

After you left me I realized how important those little things are.
I have learn from my mistakes I believe I can do better then before.
I hope you'll give me another chance.

Ask me about Love and I''ll tell you Pamela Kok Huiwen.

Love is forgiving

2009-06-26T09:57:00.000-07:00

Pamela you know i love you right?
Pamela you know that i really don't want to lose you again right?
Pamela you know that i think about you almost everyday right?
Pamela you know i care alot for you right?
Pamela you know i would never ever give you up for someone else right?
Pamela you know that i will wait for you right?
Pamela you know that even if i have to wait 1 year i will still wait right?
Pamela you know that you are the only person that i have in my heart right?
Pamela you know that it's really hard for me to move on right?
Pamela you know you mean alot to me right?
Pamela you know that no matter what happens i'll still love you right?
Pamela you know that you're my first true love right?
Pamela you know that i'll do anything to have you back in my arms right?
Pamela you know that i'll give upi everything for you right?
Pamela you know that i'm always heartbroken right?
Pamela you know i'm sad right?
Pamela you know I'm upset right?
Pamela you know i'm jealous right?
Pamela you know that i cry every night right?
Pamela you know that what i have left of you is only your name tag right?
Pamela you know that i wish that the both of us were stuck on an island right?
Pamela you know i look at you everytime you fall asleep right?
Pamela you know that sometimes when you sleep your eyes still open right? lol
Pamela you know that the only thing about be is you right?
Pamela you know that whatever i do for you would all be for you right?
Pamela you know i'm sorry for all my wrong deeds right?
Pamela you know I regretted not blogging or reading your blog right?
Pamela you know you once love me right?
Pamela you know till now that i still love you right?
Pamela you know that our anniversary is every 22nd right?
Pamela you know I feel at home when I talk to you right?
Pamela you know i'm willing to forgive you right?
Pamela you know Love is Forgiving right?
Pamela you know Love is never hatred right?
Pamela you know Love is Care right?
Pamela you know Love is never anger right?
Pamela you know Love is Never Jealous right?
Pamela you know True Love is me and you right?
Pamela do you know i yearn to be with you at home right?

Pamela do you know how badly i need you back?
Pamela do you know how much hurt you've brought to me?
Pamela do you know how far i've drifted away when you left me?

Pamela do you know all this?

Pamela you sure know that i love you right? ):

I'll regret this the rest of my life

2009-06-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

Pamela you don't have to do anything at all, nothing, you can just stand there,
don't move and I will already love you like mad.

I never complain
I always gave my best
for you for me
I'm sorry I'm just a beginner at this
I don't know if this would be too late,
but I'm here blogging away on this blog you made me.

This blog was meant to be full of memories when we were together
I'm sorry that I left this empty when we were together
I guess now it will all just be memories of me waiting for you.

We did talk, but was it a heart to heart talk?
Nah, it was more like a KNIFE to heart talk ):
sigh, really don't know how to express my sincerity and faithfulness towards you.

Why didn't I see the importance of blog so much earlier!?
Regret Regret, really did.

Regretting this all my life.

I'M SORRY ):
I really am ):

Ungrateful people

2009-06-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

I FUCKING HATE GIRLS WHO DON'T
APPRECIATE ALL THE THINGS THAT
WE DO FOR THEM, UNGRATEFUL PEOPLE.

HOW CAN GOD LET THEM OFF JUST LIKE THAT?

Leon I saying this on behalf of you [:

Sigh.

2009-06-23T04:58:00.001-07:00

Will Pamela wish me happy birthday?
Will she sms me a meaningful sms?
Will she allow me to speak to her for 5 mins on my birthday?
Will she surprise me on my birthday?

Will She be my Birthday Gift?

I don't know why, but I'm so nervous.
I don't intend on celebrating my birthday.

We were more then Romance; I Love You Hello Kitty Girl.

Simple.

2009-06-19T09:52:00.000-07:00

You're slowly suffering a major Breakdown,
Well I've been suffering from that Breakdown
since you say "Lets just end here".

What I really suggest you to do
now is just to get the very best
for nothing less then You and I.

22nd November 2007

2009-06-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

Hey, I guess by now you'll see that Pamela and I are no longer together,
and just to cut things short I don't know if she'll do something about me ad her.
I guess this would be my last post.

I really want to say Thank you to:

Naomi Ho
Daniel Seah
Faiz
Izen Toh
Endy Susanto
Ervin Susanto
Dominic Cheok
Timothy
Faris Wong
Gabriel Tay
Sheena Ng
Nicole Cheok
Geraldine Loke
Michelle Arteche
Kathrine Arteche
Dhamiri
Leon Francis
Jeremiah Koh
Mekard
Mei Yi
Aunty Chanok (:
Brendan Loo
Lingjie
Eugene Then
Kelly
Hui Shi
Shanice Elizebeth
Esther

Thank You for putting up with all my stories.

As for the clique, thank you very much for getting her out of my mind,
and I'm sorry for whatever that I've done wrong.

I guess that Pamela wouldn't choose me over the other guy, and I dont think that
she is ever going to do something about me.
So this would be my last farewell to you guys, We will still get to see each other sooner or later
up in Heaven.

As for Pamela Kok Huiwen,
I swear upon my whole life,

Thank you for this Special Relationship that you gave me, at least I got a chance to see and feel
what real love really means, I hope that before I go I'll be able to get to see you just one last time
well I don't think it'll ever happen before I go. Thank you for those times that you have put up with all my whatever nonsense, my childish acts sometimes, I'm sorry that I had that fling when we were together, if you'll ever come back i will promise to be faithful to you, to never ever ever break your heart again. I hope that this pass few months, you would have enough fun and just return. if this really happens to me, just want you to know that all this is for you and I really love you alot and you mean the world to me. I guess Pamela Kok Huiwen wouldn't be ever sad for me even if i die. So I wish you the best in everything you do. I Love You.

Thank You so much for showing me so much care and concern, I guess my time has yet to come we'll see each other once again in Heaven.

Pamela Kok Huiwen ♥
221107

Loves Gabriel

Wishful thoughts.

2009-06-15T11:55:00.000-07:00

I try to picture myself as a man who always have an open hand.
Nothing is ever as it seem
This life is but a dream

SIGH.

2009-06-15T08:07:00.001-07:00

COME BACK SOON PAMELA ):

Pamela, not again.

2009-06-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

I still cannot understand why is this still happening?
Are you sure you're going let me die, so that you will be happy with him?
What have I done wrong that I deserve such punishment?
Haven't I shown enough of sincerity to you?
Haven't I made you things?
Haven't I kneeled down before you?
Haven't I hurt myself because of you?
If I haven't done enough to show my sincerity tell me then,
I will gladly do more for you,

Is it so hard for you to see that you're the only one for me?
My Baby BooBoo, don't go please.

Your, FATBANANACAKESTRAWBERRYCHOCOLATE
SUNNYSUNSHINESPIDERMANGODZILLACRAYONLITTLESTAR Boy.

It;s all for the sake of Pamela,

2009-06-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

I'm sick,
I'm Heartbroken,
I'm Tired,
I'm Angry,
I'm Jealous,
I'm Miserable,
I'm Lonely,
I'm feeling so empty in me,
I'm feeling like someone just took you away from me,
I'm feeling so horrible almost everyday,
I'm missing you almost everyday,
I'm having sucidal thoughts.

Don't ask me about the 22nd,
I'm killing myself on that Day.

PAMELA YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS, ONLY YOU.

22nd of June.

2009-06-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

Since when did I message her in front of you?
Since when did you Not message him in front of me?

Since when did i mention her in front of you?
since when did you not mention him in front of me?

Since when did i ever mention about him when i start to think about things?
since when did you not mention about her when you start thinking about things?

Am I suppose to feel happy? you tell me.

I Miss those times real badly. ):

2009-06-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

Want see my Son!?

Pamela Mummy, Gabriel Papa. (:

It hurts when I say I love you.

2009-06-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

JUST LIKE THE FRESH NEW PAINT ON YOUR BLOCKS,
YOU HAVE A FRESH NEW START.

SOMEONE NEEDS TO HURRY THE HELL UP AND INVENT A TIME MACHINE.

I tripped on Pamela and fell into Love. ):
and it hurts.

PAMELAAAAAAAA! ):

2009-06-11T09:36:00.000-07:00

In Loving Memories.
R.I.P
Pamela Kok Huiwen & Gabriel Prieztiano Loke Jian Xun

):

Love don't come so easily
This doesn't have to end in tragedy
I have you and you have me
We're one and a million
Why can't you see?

I meant every word I said
I never was lying when we talked in bed
I'm retracing every step in my head
What did I miss back then?
I don't understand
How could you forget what we had
for so long ):

Things were so good
A little dream we had together
To buy a house, settle down, do our thing
But you disappeared on me
And your heart went missing
I don't know where your heart went
It was here just the other day
Now it's gone
I'm gonna call the police
Call the investigator, the heart investigator. Sigh

I don't know how to find it
I don't know where it is.

If anybody is willing to push me off a building, please call me ):

Loves Gabriel, ):

Dear Lord,

2009-06-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

I'll be praying for a Miracle now.
Readers, please pray for me will you?

My prayers:
Dear Lord, I pray that one day Pamela will see something different about me
that my love for her isn't any ordinary love, Lord if it's a Yes tell me if it's a No tell me
if it's a Wait tell me, Lord I hope that you also see sincerity and true love in me.
Please spare me form all her MEAN doings.
Spare her as she is doing out of sudden crush.
I also pray for a Miracle that she will also Love me again
just like she used to.
Please Lord I beg of you to grant this little prayer of mine,
I'll promise your doings wouldn't be in vain.
Amen.

You say it best.

2009-06-10T02:32:00.000-07:00

Without saying a word you light up my Dark.
They can never defy what's been said between your heart and mine.

The Smile on your face
The Truth in your eyes
The Touch of your hands

Tells me you'll never leave me.

Sigh, aren't you suppose to feel this way too?

I kissed you in my dreams ):

Yes you do.

2009-06-09T03:38:00.000-07:00

CAUSE YOU KNOW THAT THE ONLY PERSON THAT
TRULY LOVES YOU IS ME.

My Hello Kitty Girl ):

2009-06-08T08:21:00.001-07:00

She Loves me,
She Loves me Not
She Loves me,
She Loves me Not,
She Loves me,
She Loves me Not,
She Loves me....

THE SKY WILL DROP!!

):

2009-06-07T23:55:00.000-07:00

All my love came to nothing at all my love
When I woke up to find
You were no longer mine
All my love thrown away after all the time
Now there’s no place for me in the future
You see
I don’t understand you
I’ve done all I can do
Tell me how could I give you more
More than all my love.

Loves Gabriel; Pamela

Jesus Christ

2009-06-07T12:08:00.000-07:00

OHHH PAMELA ):

Sucidal Thoughts for Pamela.

2009-06-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

It really breaks my heart when I say I Love you to You. ):
I really regretted going to BPGHS want to know why?

Here's why, if i didnt have gone to BPGHS I wouldnt have that problem,
If i didn't have that problem i wouldn't know Hui Shi,
if i didn't have known Hui Shi, i wouldn't have know Hello Kitty Girl,
if i didn't have know Hello kitty Girl, I wouldn't be heartbroken,
if i didn't got heartbroken, i wouldn't be in this state.

My one and only Monkey ):
Sigh.

Sucidal Thoughts

2009-06-07T02:31:00.000-07:00

Pamela why do I feel so useless and hopeless? I really need you so badly beside me right now loh.
It's as though I traded my life for you and now I really cannot forget about you I really don't know why? I really need your help I would really appreciated you listen to how I have been for this pass few months I have so much to tell you, but you don't seem to even care even if I'm dead or alive.I really feel like ending all this right now. I really find now reason in carrying on living this life that i have which is so miserable and as every day pass i don't see any of this getting better.

I guess the only way to solve this unsolvable problem of mine is to just to kill myself.
OR you could just love me like once you did and i'll love you more than anything else in the world.

I gave you my heart but you broke it in two.
Who is going to save my soul now?

I really regretted having known you, now that i've done so I can't let you go

I LOVE PKHW (:

2009-06-07T00:16:00.000-07:00

KNN PCB WHO NEVER DIE BEFORE AH SAY PAMELA BETTER OF WITH IVAN
FUCKING THICK SKIN AH YOU ALL TOO MUCH YOU KNOW.

SIGH SIGH SIGH

2009-06-06T12:27:00.000-07:00

Pamela,

Who dosen't long for someone like you to hold?
Pamela, you have loved me without once ever being told,
Can you tell me why am i all alone now?
To have a Love like you isn't easy to find.
I have searched through all dirty mines
and what i found was this wonderful dime
I'll treasure you like it was once in a life time.

when I'm sad and all alone I tend to look at this dime of mine
It has never failed to put that smile on me
and all I know is it'll never leave me
I told myself to protect it with all my life
cause its the most that i'll ever find

Then one day when I was fast asleep,
someone decided to steal this from me
I told myself that i'll never give up
but they all seem to be against me
THEN YOU'RE GONE.

I know if I let go now you'll be gone forever,
how i wished we could spend more time together
you took my breath away when you whisper in my ear
telling me I Love you Dear.
I was touched as this was what I long to hear

You said you love me oh so dear
but you left me in tears
I'm so glad that i had you here
You hold me close when i'm in fear

you hold me so tight till i wasn't able to take flight
I felt like you I needed you almost every night
im so hoping that you'll just love me again.

PKHW (:
I had loved you since the day i said I needed you
I have Loved you since - and thats when i'll still be Loving you
221107 - FOREVER

):

2009-06-05T22:06:00.000-07:00

I'll take you to London.
We'll go to Japan to see Hello Kitty.
We'll get married.
Buy a house in Thailand.

Enough I feel like killing myself really.

I think of you when i watched Transformers.

2009-06-04T08:52:00.000-07:00

Pamela,

I really miss You alot today, and I keep thinking to myself
what haven't I done to have touch Your Heart.
It has already been months that we're like that,
and as days go by, I realized that since the day that You left me,
I have always been so miserable inside, and I also realized the past few days
whatever I have been doing I would think of You, even a TV show
will make me think of You.

It's Really hard to get You out of my mind, its just the memories
that I had with You that made a mark in my life.

There are a few things that I want You to know:
I can give up My Games(DOTA),
Sm*king, My LAN, My friends, My horrible singing?
and everything that you dislike about me, to see You happy with me.
Your Special Someone can?

I will go with Everything You say, to try my best to make You happy
to try to fit in in Your life, to make sure that You will never feel hurt.

I'll give up EVERYTHING you want me to.
I Promise to be Faithful and True to You

Dear Lord, I seek for your help, please help me give me a peace of mind
Dear Lord, I seek for your guidance in whatever I do,
Please answer all my Prayers.
Thank You Lord. Amen.

Pray for me People.

My Baby Boo.

2009-06-03T12:15:00.001-07:00

hahahaha.

I know I know I know,
where i get this picture right?
that dont matter
what matter is that
you're using it !!!!! (((:

Do you remember me everytime you drink water!?!?
*winks winks*

Nights and Love, Pamela.

You would make a difference for me.

2009-06-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

My Blog so Pathetic sia, everyone VIEW VIEW

NO TAG!!! -.-

Anyway My mom was hospitalized yesterday,
went to visit her today, I'm so glad that Pamela could come
but i know I said some mean things so I want to say,
SORRY.
Then she started messaging her special someone I guess,
mad me real down down.
But at least we laughed together. I'm quite happy,
but I guess she's treating me as a friend.
NOTHING SPECIAL.

I don't know why but I really think that
I'm so Useless and Pathetic, I mean look at this,
after those few months I've waited,
those flowers I send,
those things I do for her,
those things that I sacrificed for her,
Nothing, I'm not doing enough things for her,
maybe thats why she still dosen't want me.

She tell me she want to vomit, I cannot even do anything,
she don't know how to go to NUH from Buona Vista she ask me
i also don't know, I really feel so useless, maybe thats why she
dosen't want me anymore.

I want to tell you and everyone reading something,
I may not be as smart as you are or as smart as your special someone,
but I know that I have the heart the sincerity the patience
to wait for you, to do all those things for you.

This poor heart of mine will still stay strong as ever
no matter how many times it's been broken by You.

My darling forgive me, I yearn for Your touch,
have pity come back now, I need you so much,
Believe me and you'll hear it, The Voice of True Love.

When will We meet again? When When When?
Your Love means so much more then all the loves I had before
Please believe what I say because I Love You.

Please give me one more chance, this is my first true Romance.

I Love You PKHW (:

My Gorilla, you're gone.

2009-06-02T11:01:00.000-07:00

Maybe you didn't know, I'm still treasuring all this. ):

I Pamela Kok Huiwen 24/7

2009-06-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

I'm so Sorry Pamela.

I'LL WRITE YOU A MILLION SORRY,
YOU JUST WAIT.

The minute you're gone I cry, I stare into emptiness
I'm filled with such loneliness.
The world goes from right to wrong, the minute you're gone.
The minute you're gone I see, how lonely a man I'd be.
My life would be ohhh so blue if i couldn't be with you.
The minute you're gone I pray.
The minute you're gone I say, please don't stay away too long.

Someone else is in your arms tonight
While Im all alone and blue
Someone else will kiss and hold you tight
Just the way I used to do
I used to be your love
And now Im your used to be
Outsider, thats me
Youll be dancing cheek to cheek with him
To our favorite melody
And the tender words you speak to him
Will be words you spoke to me
Once I was in your hearts
Now someone else holds the key
I want you so much
I can look but must not touch
I keep waiting for the phone to ring
But I know its all in vain
When you left me you took everything
But the memories and the pain
I used to be your love
And now Im your used to be

We could've spent this June Together.
and
An Unforgettable birthday with You.

You told me I was the one for You.

2009-06-01T05:01:00.001-07:00

When will you be coming back Pamela?
Please tell me that you are cause
I Miss You ):

When you decided to leave.

2009-05-31T18:51:00.000-07:00

Then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave.

Today will be the start of our June holiday,
I'm just going to say whatever is on my mind now.
As for Pamela, I guess she would be able to meet up with her
special someone almost everyday now, and most probably
something good will happen for the both of them during this June holiday.

I didn't thought you'd be gone this long, I just want u to call my phone,
I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out
after all I put u through u still stuck around and
stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart,
baby you were a good girl and I had no heart.
Never thought the day would come where
you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you.
Ever since you left me, my whole life came crashing down on me.

Pamela you are Loved.

Waiting is my Game.

2009-05-31T08:07:00.000-07:00

Faris Wong!

Gabriel Loke!

Today went to CCk Gym with Faris Wong, Ervin Susanto, Gabriel Tay and Me.
Tay was super late.

ANYWAY!

Pamela really needs to know that

I have changed for her,
that I really care about her,
that I truely Love her,
that she means the world to me,
that she will always be the one for me,
that I will never ever hurt her again.

I hope that after all the things I have done for her,
sacrificed for her, suffered for her,
all will finally pay off.
I will still be waiting for you like I have always do.

I'll give you my 99% and all you have to give is your 1%

Give me 1 more chance please?

Waiting for Ammergadon(Pamela) ):

Pamela.

2009-05-31T06:09:00.001-07:00

There you Go!

lol 3 pics only i know.

I would like to thank my mother my father... right.

Pamela Misses my mother.
how sweeet.

Confirmation (:

2009-05-30T09:15:00.001-07:00

CONFIRMATION DAY!!

3 OF US.

LUCKILY I GOT MICHELLE TO ACCOMPANY ME TODAY(:

After 10 years of eudcation in church, all have finally paid off.
Pictures maybe tomorrow (:

WOOOOOOOOOHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!

2009-05-29T11:01:00.000-07:00

I keep thinking to myself what is it about me that Pamela hates so much.
SIGH!

I LOVE PAMELA KOK HUIWEN ):

KUMAR! (:

2009-05-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

PART 1

PART 2

PART 3

Thanks to Yunus.

My Hello Kitty Girl (:

2009-04-18T23:53:00.000-07:00

GABRIEL LOVE PAMELA KOK HUIWEN.

Pamela you made this blog for me, I know you went through all the trouble
just to make this turn out nice for me. Thank you very much,
I know that i also not using this blog anymore but i will consider
using it back, Pamela I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I don't want to leave you.
Please i plead you to just try and love me again. I really need you by my side.
you remember the time when we skip school? and you came over to my house to sleep? Then my father come in then you faster went to hide under my bed?
haha, I can remember that clearly. Do you remember the time when I
stayed over your house? I really enjoyed. I felt real happy (:
You remember all the times we would go over to my gugu place to eat dinner?
You would always be playing with Ashlee Mae.
Do you still remember the times when we were at home?
We were always playing with each other and making fun of one another?
you remember the time that we would cuddle together so tightly before we go to
sleep?
Do you remember that you always "saliva come out" on my pillow?
Do you still remember that we used take picture of each other when we were sleeping?
Do you still remember the times that we "ge ge ge"?
Do you still remember the time while you walking to school then your skirt drop? LOL (:
Pamela, there is just so many things i still want to show and share with you. Pamela I want you to know that I will always be there for you no matter what,
you can always trust me.
Baobei, like you said God will bring us back together, I hope that you really meant what you said, Pamela I love you oh so dearly.
I still want to teach you how to make the scotch tape wallet, I still want to teach you how to do the scotch tape rose.
About the blogshop, I really want that to happen. I want to start a blogshop with you.
I LOVE YOU PAMELA(:

Pamela I will wait for you (:

2008-08-26T02:21:00.000-07:00

Re-linked,

and deleted those who didn't link me.

2008-08-16T11:01:00.000-07:00

I DONT LIKE PEOPLE WHO EAT OTAH ESPECIALLY FISH OTAH!

Otah Girl.

2008-08-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

I LOVE PAMELA KOK HUIWEN!

2008-08-12T06:33:00.000-07:00

HI EVERYONE!

ALL NEW!

2008-08-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

HELLO, Gabriel! (:

See! I made it neat & nice.
Post okay?
Don't waste my effort.
& you must say..?

I love you!

♥ Pamela.